Dreams Shattered???

It's been raining the whole morning now... I am feeling cold,down and blue. People from KDU called me up yesterday, got some information on Broadcasting. I was told that I can't get loan in KDU, and I have to pay close to 8000 bucks to enroll... Total fees is going to cost me around 35000 bucks...
I am feeling so down now... I am SO stress up... I am afraid I'll never achieve my dreams. I am am afraid I'll look back 30 years from now and start to regret my life.
I know I only live once, I know once opportunity passed me by, it might never come again... I am so worried now, I don't want to end up doing admin work for the rest of my life... I will not let my dreams shattered like pieces of glass...
I'LL PROVE TO THE WORLD...

我即将要为我的梦想踏出第一步了。。。

我已经向我父母提出要去念书的念头了。。。他们也很支持。。。如没计算错的话，我应该在明年的一月就会上大学咯。。。想到这一点我真得很开心。。。希望我可以拿出一份好成绩回来给我父母看，免得辜负了他们。。。

Somehow...I'll Reach Out To My Dreams,我一定会为了我的梦想努力的奋斗。。。

人生短短几十年。。。如果不去最求自己的的理想，实现自己的梦想，我就真的觉得会对不起自己。。。我的梦想是成为一位出色的主播，主持人。虽然现在的我还在做一些我不喜欢工作，但是总有一天我一定会成功的。。。
如果我还为尝试就放弃了，那的人生就真的每意义了。。。就算失败，我也要在尝试之后才失败，因为这样才可以给自己一个交待，给身边支持我的人一个交待。。。不过我还是相信我会成功的啦。。。你们就等着看我第一次播报新闻吧。。。

Me and My Dream 我和我的梦想

When I see someone hosting a show,I wish I am that person... I WANT to be that person... I know I canbe that be person... But sadly now I'm stuck in a place doing what I said I don't want to do... Sitting in an office repeating the same stuff EVERY SINGLE DAY... I totally feel like crap doing it...我也有我的梦想啊，我相信每个人都有权力去实现自己的梦想。。。只要你有恒心就一定做得到。。。 我说得对吗？话说回来，我不是不去实现我的梦想，只是我目前还没有这个能力。。。
烦啊。。。 Stuck in place doing things I hate... Pathetic or not... No matter what the world think of me,I'll definately prove to you who I really am... I will be what I want to be...